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Hey everyone, I am sorry I haven't been keeping up with my blog entries, I just started school so I am pretty busy! I will just combine monday's and Wednesday's in the same post. Here goes.

What keeps me going when I just want to stop...?
Well when it comes to running on the treadmill, I turn a really kickass song on and just power on through. It hurts like hell and I can hardly breathe by the end of it but I feel proud that I was able to keep going.
When it comes to eating healthy, I actually talk to myself...out loud. I tell myself that eventually the cravings will go away and that eating this healthy rabbit food stuff will make me healthy. Then I try not to think about pints of ice cream or cake or fettuchini alfredo.
And when talking about my whole struggle with weight loss and food control, I actually look at myself in the mirror. I take it all in and become disgusted and try harder. I'm not saying I hate the way I look, I just don't like all the weird shapes my fat sits in around my body. I know that sounds gross but hey I'm being honest here. And also I think about when I first lost a lot of weight, when i first started dating my boyfriend. I try to remember how happy i was and convince myself that i can get back there again. I do keep going no matter what, this time especially and I intend to keep it up.


Food Weaknesses?

ICE CREAM. Holy deliciousness... gimme some moosetracks and i will seriously sit there and eat it until i die. that is how bad i am when it comes to ice cream. Another thing is fast food because it's so quick! I havent had it in a while because i am boycotting it, but i love me some chicken nuggets from mcdonalds. I especially give in when my boyfriend and i go out to eat or we eat together. It frustrates me that he thinks he can just eat what he wants and he is just as unhealthy as i am. So when he gets a gyro and fries, i have to have one too because i dont want to be the exception. I am just happy when i'm with him so instead of being miserable and having a salad, i am gonna get even more happier with him and get some ice cream instead. Anything sugar pretty much and i am a goner!