It is time.

Ha, I sound like Rafikki from The Lion King. But seriously. It is time to get my butt in gear. Today I had some really bad abdominal pain and it made me feel so overweight because it hurt to try and suck in my stomach. So gross. My friend Jenille and I are going to organize a workout plan and write down our weight loss goals. I need to get started and need someone to hold me accountable to keep going. I can workout fine, but when it comes to repetition and eating right, that's where I fall short. Tonight we are going out for pizza since Chris is coming back home, but hey, it's okay to celebrate I think. I just want to be beautiful and healthy. I want to be happy and outgoing. Shaycarl from Youtube has really inspired me to get going. He lost 85lbs in just a few months and now he's addicted to working out. I want that to be me! Hopefully this awful stomach cramping will go away. I want to start living my life.

Here's what I ate today:

Breakfast: 2 pieces wheat toast, 1 package instant oatmeal, 1 cup cranberry juice
Lunch: healthychoice chicken tortilla soup
Snack: popcorn
Dinner: PIZZZAAA!!
Misc: lemonade

Tuesday

Today was a short, exhausting day. I didn't have much time to work out this evening as I had homework to do, but I still ran 1 mile, and did arms and abs. I'm not working out as long as I would like to, but at least I'm doing it. That's the first step. I need to gradually get back into it, otherwise I'm going to hate it and resent doing it every night. I'm going to bed, I'm exhausted. I may or may not workout tomorrow as I have hospice volunteer work and its my day off so I like to relax for a while.

Breakfast: cereal with milk.
Lunch: PBJ sandwich, 2 graham crackers, 4 fat free marshmallows, 1 fun size hershey bar
Snack: multigrain cheerios
Dinner: Meatloaf and perogies.
Water to drink.

Monday

I did workout today. I walked on the treadmill and then decided to kick into high gear and ran the rest of that mile. I'm tired today. Not used to getting up early after a relaxing weekend. I ate poorly today, too much, full of fat, shameful. I'm embarrassed. Haven't lost any weight yet, we'll see after tomorrow. I've gained enough this weekend to where it should be relatively easy to get it off again. I ran 1 mile, did 3 miles on the bike and burned about 300 calories. I did some arms and abs also while watching Blood Ties. The gorgeous Henry Fitzroy inspires me to be skinny, or at least his abs do ;) Alas, it is bed time, and I shall post again tomorrow.

Breakfast: cereal w/ milk
Lunch: 2 fried egg sandwiches, water to drink
Snack: PBJ sandwich, water to drink
Dinner: KFC (chicken, biscuit, mashes potatoes w/ gravy, mac n cheese) water to drink
Other: fun size candy (M&M, snickers, Twix), zero calorie gatorade, 5 calorie diet cranapple juice

I'll start Monday

Today was better than yesterday as I had predicted. After I posted I went right downstairs for a fit of dancing and it made me happy. I worked today and went to school, and I'm thinking that if I just continue my regular schedule the rest of the week, I should be fine. Friday morning I will get up early and workout, go get my liscence redone, do some cleaning, pick up Hannah, and it's off to Eastern to see Derek. I really miss him. It sucks being in a long(ish) distance relationship. I wish he was here so we could lose weight together and motivate each other. It's hard to be doing this alone. Anyway I lost a pound since yesterday, but MONDAY I will get started, back in the swing of things. Workouts at night, light dinner after work, burn 500 cals each workout, Mon, Tues, Thurs, Fri, Sat. and every other Sun. 

Here's What I ate today:

cereal with milk

spaghetti with meat sauce, 2 pieces bread w/ butter, coke zero

3 eggs, 3 pieces sausage, 2 pieces toast, diet cranberry juice,

ice cream

Things I'm giving up: Ice Cream, Pizza, Cheese, Chips

Square One?

................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................Don't even know what to say. I'm so mad at myself for allowing myself to be lazy again and give up so easily. I was posting everyday, making videos every week, actually enjoying working out, and now I feel worthless again. I want to cover up all the mirrors I come across because I can't stand looking at myself. I don't see anything good, and I know that's just my unhappiness talking. I just need to get back out there and do it. No excuses. See right now I have my workout clothes on, but I'm fighting with myself because I need to study for a test, do my laundry, clean the kitchen, and still want time to relax, and I know that if I work out, I will be forfeiting that relaxation time. Fuck it. I'm just gonna do it. Just gonna get my fat, lazy butt up and run on the tredmill until I'm gasping for air. At least then I'll feel as if I accomplished something for once in my life.

Here's what I ate today: cereal with milk
                                   PBJ sandwich, popcorn, ice cream, coke zero,
                                   salad with french dressing and croutons, spaghetti with meat, seagrams wine cooler

........tomorrow will be a better day. I'm committing to weighing in everyday and posting/working out. even if it kills me...
This morning I weighed 244.8

Fourth of July weekend!

Hello again all, happy 3 day weekend to each of you. Monday is July 4th and I'm getting a little nervous. The last time we had a family get-together was for mother's day and there were so many delicious foods and desserts that I ate badly. There hasn't been a holiday or event to go to since I've started dieting so this weekend will definitely be a challenge for me in terms of fighting against cravings. I'll have to really kick some ass today after work with my workout as I've already gained 3 lbs this week. It sucks but i'm gonna try really hard this weekend to get back to where I was before. I won't care if I don't lose any weight, but I want to get those 3 lbs off and back to where I was before.
Tonight Derek, the parentals, and I are going to Valpo for some music/fireworks event. It should be cool. Who doesn't love fireworks? My dog...that's for sure...
Afterward we plan on coming back to the house and might drink a little. We will see though. I am nervous about that too as drinking makes you bloated and there are a lot of calories in liquor. It's summertime and I want to live a little, but I don't want to lose everything I've worked for so far. It'll be okay I think. Happy 4th!

Catch up!

Sorry I've not been blogging, it's seriously been the farthest thing from my mind. I have been so busy working, and exercising and dieting and spending every second with Derek that there's never enough time to blog. But I'm back today. So real quick, here's the link to my new video, I lost 12 pounds so far check it out if you haven't seen it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_11HUBPwatk

Tonight I was naughty and went out to eat with Kacey after work. We went to Cafe 24 a.k.a Round the Clock and I am so stuffed. I am worried that I'm not going to have lost any weight after this week because of how I ate today. But hopefully I can get my weight back down to where I was before. So the dieting has become much easier now because I can go without tempting foods and hardly ever get cravings anymore. It's pretty awesome. I also was able to go workout with a friend yesterday and I still have blisters on the back of my heels from all the walking we did. Thanks Jenille for keeping me motivated :) I am always looking for someone to workout with so just call or text me and I will be there. Next month is going to be crazy busy. I'm turning 21 in 13 days and that's my mini-deadline for weight loss. I want to have lost at least 20 lbs by my birthday, so that's only 8 more pounds to go. I might not make it but I'm gonna try my hardest.

Anyway, I'm pretty sleepy and I'm gonna get up early tomorrow to workout so..Goodnight all!

Week 4, Day 5

Talk about an inspiration! Friday after work, I went with mom and michael to run on the track at t.f. south. and we ran around a couple times. I did 1 mile and ran up the bleachers too. After one set of stairs, my legs were burning!! Mom and michael told me that I did an awesome job, and good words never get old. So when I got home, I ate dinner--Salmon and rice--- and then I played Pirates of the Caribbean Lego, and it was so so so fun! It was really nice and rewarding to be able to chill out and play a game after my workout because I knew that I worked hard and I never felt that feeling of "oh I really should be working out right now". My conscience kept quiet that evening :) I recommend that game, it was awesome!

Week 4, Day 4

Work work work work work work CRASH. That's how I'm feeling today. I worked 7am to 7pm today and I am really feeling it. I still have to workout tonight when I get home too.

Today I want to talk about my favorite weight loss games.

1. EA Active 2 for Kinect

This game really does a great job of working your total body. It's fun to play because there are so mnay different workouts and scenery settings to choose from. Personally I enjoy the mountain biking simulation where you alternate between running, squatting, and jumping to get over hills. It comes with a heart rate monitor that is more or less acurate. Everytime I play this I am sweating and gasping for air, in an awesome workout way of course!

2. Zumba for kinect

This one is probably my favorite one to dance to. I love it because the music is upbeat and gets you moving and it makes you feel all sexy and sassy too. The bar at the bottom fills up if you do the moves correctly and  the main dancer critiques you on how well or poorly you are performing the moves. I only wish there was more variety and that it gave you some more lee-way in terms of performing the dance moves. If you don't do the dance move right little red marks appear on the body parts you aren't moving correctly. Sometimes it's frusterating because you can do the move perfect and it will still say you are doing it wrong. All in all, a great game.

3. Dance Central for Kinect

This one is a little more mild and better for beginners. It's fun because you just DANCE and there are tons of songs that you know. This one makes you feel like you actually know how to dance (where my white people at??!!) because most of the moves are easy to follow. I love the colors and characters and music. There is also an option of turning on "workout mode" that tells you how many calories you burn per song, though I don't know how accurate it is. This one is great because it plays like a fun video game should but gives you that feeling of being active and tricks you into thinking you are burning calories!

Week 4- Day 3

I meant to post my blog and the new video yesterday but it nothing was working and instead of staying frustrated, I didn't deal with it and decided to take care of everything now. So here's the link to the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FbiFmfWcHVE

Yesterday I had WAY tooo much food and this morning I desperately ran on the tredmill to try and burn extra calories. I am finding that after each workout part of me wants to keep going because I know I can do more but I normally can't because I'm always rushing to get to work. Time is so hard for me to manage. I got involved with some Ben & Jerry's last night, and I felt so shameful this morning. It was just like doing the walk of shame in the morning at 9:00 a.m., lol. So I ran 2 miles today and did some ab crunches and arm reps. I have to work from 7-7 tomorrow so I'll have to workout tomorrow afterwards. I didn't eat much today and I don't feel hungry so that's good. It's almost time to get some new running shoes. Speaking of running shoes, have you seen these?


they are called Five Fingers and look so cool! I want to get a pair but I'm not sure how they would be. They are really expensive though. Still, they seem neat. Well eenjoy the video, I will be back again tomorrow!

End of Week 3

Week 3 is over, and I've lost a total of 10 pounds since beginning weight loss, and I'm really happy so far with my results. I weighed myself at 240.0 and when I get under that, I'm gonna flip out cuz I can't remember the last time I weighed less than that. I have come to realize that I can actually eat what I want (in moderation) and lose weight as long as I kick my ass on the treadmill. Remember yesterday when I was gonna go run on the high school track? Well I did and it was an awesome workout. I ran 2 miles (8 times around) and climbed the bleachers. My legs were burning! I was also silently proud of myself because there was another guy there who was in pretty good shape and he only ran 1 mile and left, but who's counting? Today my leg is hurting up by my hip. I need to stretch more otherwise I'm going to hurt myself. Today I only ran 1 mile on the tredmill and I did it in 10:21. Not my best but still pretty good for someone in my shape. There will not be a video available today, sorry! I will post it tomorrow though. I just didn't have time this morning, but since I'm working at 2 tomorrow, I will put it together in the morning.
At work today we had a picnic which meant we had a lot of food. I had a big lunch so I only ate a small dinner. And I am proud to say that I only had a small piece of pie at work. It was so small that everyone was making fun of it. I don't care, they can tease me all they want and eat their 1,000 calorie slices of pie. I'm done eating junk, I'm done treating my body wrong, and I'm through with not living. :) Video up tomorrow!

Sunday, week 3 almost over!

LAST CHANCE WORKOUT! or so they say on the biggest loser. Today is Father's Day, and this morning we had eggs, toast, grits and sausage. Not the healthiest of breakfasts but hey we're celebratin'. No plans for today as of now, except it's gonna be HOT! I'm gonna workout in a bit, gotta burn off those calories. Yesterday I ran 2 miles, and it wore me out. Just when I think I can't sweat enough...surprise! It's so gross. Anyone ever see Jackass 3, where Preston does the "sweat suit cocktail"? Such a lovely image.... :O

This week has not been as productive as the first week because I don't think I have lost any weight. If anything, I've put on weight. I need to be stricter with my diet, especially not eating after 9:00 because that's bed for my metabolism. I also think I need to go to bed earlier, but I don't want to wake up any earlier in the morning. I think I want to go run the track at t.f. South today and try running on a different surface instead of the tredmill. Well, off I go. I really really don't want to do it but I'm gonna!

I don't even know what day this is anymore!

http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/wqPKYTh/




I lost track of counting the days plus I think "day 1, Day 2, Day 3" etc is a little boring. I will have to challenge myself from now on to come up with a creative title. So I've been having this problem with sleeping in and I'm not sure how I feel about it. Every morning my alarm goes off at 9am but sometimes I am tossing and turning like 15 mins before the alarm goes off. I do this bad thing where I will check to see what time it is and then because I know the alarm is gonna go off, I can't sleep annymore even though I want to really bad! Another thing too: when I reset my alarm for like 9:30 after it goes off once, I want to get a little more sleep in but I can't because then I start thinking about all the things I could and should be doing. "oh I gotta go workout, I hav to make my lunch, maybe I should walk the dog, maybe I should run outside today, I have to clean the kitchen, I need to clean out my car" It's a nightmare. I guess it's good that I get up then because I can't sleep, but then I'm cranky for like half the morning. Tomorrow should be fun cuz I'm getting up at 5:45 to go to work at 7. Never like doing that!

So I would like to change the layout of my blog. I don't want to have pics of fruits and vegetables and bikini models or any junk like that. Something cool looking but gives the message of "life" and changing it for the better. I'll hop on google later and see what I can find. How are everyone's workouts going? Leave me comments! Talk to you tomorrow!

Breakfast: cereal with banana and milk
Lunch: Lean cuisine dinner, yogurt
Dinner: 2 corndogs w/ ketchup, cottage cheese, water to drink

Mid week post!

So I have ran 2 miles so far this week, so I've got 3 more to go before monday, which I will probably run like 6 miles before then. The last time I ran it was suprisingly easy. I can run longer now and I am learning to control my breathing. I am still losing weight, woo hoo! I have been busy this week, so i apologize for not blogging as much. I have no idea what I was doing last week that game me so much time to blog everyday. Whatever it was I miss it. Yesterday I went with Derek, Hannah and their mom to see Derek's new house in Tuscola. Yes he is moving, but i'm not worried. If anything, once he is gone that will be one less distraction and one less persuader of bad food to take me off track. And then when it comes time to visit each other, I will be lookin pretty good! I got a new pair of jeans, from Good Will (so i guess they're not technically new) and they are tight and fit me, so that's good.
Off to have breakfast!

Inspiration of the week: PETER JACKSON

Who doesn't love this guys movies? The Lord of the Rings trilogy is a masterpiece! I was seriously shocked when I saw how he looks today, it's fantastic. It looks like he's lost a whole person. Who cares if losing all that weight had something to do with being a millionaire, still he's changed his life around. Can you imagine what it must have been like for him when they were filming the movies? Going to these remote locations, climbing hills and mountains and filimg all hours of the night. No wonder he lost all that weight, it must have been exhausting and really hard for him as an overweight man. Look at him now: healthy, happy, successful and looking younger too. Now if only he'd cut that hair...

I just ran another 2 miles!!
Breakfast: 1 banana, pancakes
Lunch: lean cuisine 280 cals
Dinner: ham and cheese sandwich, baked bbq chips, water to drink

Starting Week 2 over!

First off, I would like to say that I appreciate everyone who has taken the time to read the blogs, and thanks to those who have offered suggestions and diet tricks. Secondly, I won't be posting a video this week, frankly because I'm embarassed that I went off track this weekend. But as I'm writing this, I am sweaty from a workout so I am going back to being commited. I would like to try something new this week, hopefully it goes well. Remember those mini goals I posted way back then? One of them was "run 5 miles per week" and this week, I am going to attain that goal. I would like to practice running more outside as well so hopefully I can get my lazy butt out of bed in the morning and go run the trail like I've always been meaning to. I love to run with the dog, but my poor baby is just too old for that. Anyone want to lend me their dog? LOL kidding..

So Sorry about no video but I've taken 1 step backwards in my journey and there's nothing to show for it. I guess I got a little too cocky the first week I started. What's done is done, just know I'm back in the game and I'm not gonna let it happen again!

Date night!

So tonight Derek and I went out to the Pit Rib House, and it was soooooo good! He had a burger, and I had a bbq chicken, rib tips combo with french fries, coleslaw, and texas toast. MMM! I don't even care about how many calories were in it because we were on a date and I've been cutting calories all week. I don't anticipate losing any weight after this week because week 2 is always the hardest. your body is trying to work out the kinks and get used to dropping weight so quickly. Just like on the biggest loser how they would lose 10 pounds the first week and only lose 2 pounds the next week. That's okay though because I'm staying healthy in my food choices (with the exception of today) and I'm working out more than I did before. I have not been giving it my all this week and that's partly due to the curse of mother nature, but next week I'm gonna kick my own ass on that tredmill and get this weight off! I want to look good in my swimsuit. I can tell which parts of me are shrinking, I am proud at how strong my core is, and I love that people are noticing. This is probably the hardest thing I've done, losing weight is both physically and mentally exhausting but I just think about how accomplished I will feel afterwards. So now that i've had my naughty food eating weekend, it's time to get back on track!

Breakfast: yogurt
Lunch: Jimmy John's Turkey tom
Dinner: as described above!
Dessert: 1 brownie, ice cream cone from DQ

Day 11

................Not feeling like blogging right now. Not feeling good at all. Feeling really bloated and tired. G'night.


Breakfast: yogurt, english muffin
Lunch: ham and cheese on wheat, apple, wheat thins
Dinner: eggs in a basket, turkey sausage
Snacks: fat free ice cream

Sorry I've Been Slacking! Day 9/10

Sorry I haven't been posting like I should, I'm slacking and there's no excuse for that. I haven't been working out as I should this week either (ladies, I bet you can guess why!) because I've had a lot of dull stomach pain. I also want to talk about how I've been eating. Last night I was at Derek's house, it was probably like 12a.m. and I was hungry for a snack. So I went to the freezer and pulled out the ice cream and got a bowl and a spoon. Derek sat down at the table right across from me and I just put the spoon in the ice cream about to scoop some, and the look on his face stopped me. It was as if he was saying, "really? after you've worked so hard?" So I threw the ice cream back in the fridge and plopped down on the bed face first. I am ALWAYS HUNGRY!!@! It's pissing me off because I'm eating really healthy all the time and it's not filling me up, so I try to drink more water to keep my hunger at bay. I don't want to eat more food because I'm trying to keep my calories under 1500 cals per day, but I also know that I need to fuel my body in order to run. Does anyone have any suggestions for filling snacks that are healthy? I know popcorn is a big one, and I eat a lot of that, but I'm looking for something different.

I tried on a pair of jeans today that used to fit me, I can get them on and button them, but they are still too tight! Gotta keep trying though :) I'm gonna go for a bike ride later tonight with Derek when I get home because running today is just not gonna happen. I got on the tredmill to run 1/4 mile and I stopped shortly thereafter. Yesterday I worked out in the morning: ran 1 mile and did some stepping, then played some kinect games later with Derek and his mum.
Breakfast: banana, yogurt
Lunch: salad with croutons, blue cheese dressing
Dinner: Ham and cheese on wheat, cottage cheese
Snacks: weight watchers smoothie, pancakes with syrup :(

Yesterday's Foods
Breakfast: oatmeal with strawberries
Lunch: salad with croutons, blue cheese dressing
Dinner: Homemade minestrone soup, 2 slices bread

Day 8

Ok! Today is the start of my second week of weight loss. I am really thankful to everyone who has been reading/watching me so far, it's encouraging! Today I did not yet workout, although I am going to in just a bit once I finish this and put some new jams on my mp3 player. Today I went downstairs to workout and I was just not feeling it. I didn't want to run, I didn't want to get my heart rate up, I didn't want to do anything. All i did were a few reps of bicep curls and I quit. but now thinking on it, I wish I would have done it earlier so I didn't have to do it tonight. oh well. I think I also was feeling overconfident with my weight loss after week 1 so I need to kick it into high gear this week to make sure I keep losing and don't gain anything. I did not eat as well as I would have liked today either, but I've gotta keep trying.

Breakfast: banana
Lunch: 1 corndog and some sunchips
Dinner: Spaghetti with meatballs, 2 slices of bread with fake butter
Snacks: 2 turkey hot dogs, strawberries

Day 7- One week!

I finally finished my first week of diet and exercise and I'm proud to say that I've LOST 5.2 pounds this week. It doesn't sound like much, but I feel it. I feel stronger and more healthy. My resting heart rate has gone down, I have better strength in my arms and legs, and am just overall healthier. I am also eating smaller portions, and have not indulged in sugary, salty, or fattening foods. But I'm most proud that I've worked out every day since starting this. I love being healthy and it only makes everything better. Tomorrow I will post a new vlog inlcuded with week 1 before and after photos! I did not get to workout with a friend yet after one week, so let me know if you are interested! I know you are out there!

As promised, here's my 2nd VLOG
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j2DhYzZGaHE
Breakfast: yogurt and a banana
Lunch: salad mix with croutons and blue cheese dressing
Dinner: Chicken with green beans and baked potato

Day 6!

Sorry to be posting this so late! It is technically day 7, but yesterday we went to the Brookfield Zoo and were there all day, and I didn't get home til late last night, so that's why I'm posting so late. SO, since today marks 1 week, I will be posting my day 7 blog later this evening after work. Yes, yesterday we went to the zoo, and I forgot how HUGE brookfield really is. There's no way to see everything in one day, unless you power walk and only glance at the animals in passing. Nobody ever pays attention to those little fun facts or information boxes, at least I don't because you'd be there all day. So we walked a lot, and by the end of the day poor Vada's feet were killing her, so I carried her the rest of the way to the car as we were leaving. Girlfriend is heavy! So I got a great arm and leg workout in that day. I brought a lunch from home so I wouldn't have to eat expensive, fattening food. After we left the zoo, we went out for pizza at Gino's East. I wasn't worried that eating a slice of deep dish would hurt me since I'd been working out all week. I had a 2 cheesesticks and a half a bread stick too. I drank unsweetened ice tea. So from there, we dropped Vada off at home and went to Gayetes for ice cream. Talk about temptation! So I got some ice cream, but again, I wasn't worried about the calories because I'd been cutting myself off from any sweets all week. It's okay to reward yourself every once in a while! Stay tuned for more this evening, including how much weight I've lost this week. Thanks to whoever has been reading, and please feel free to comment, I'd love the supportive words!
Breakfast: Bagel with cream cheese
Lunch: Sunchips, strawberries
Dinner: 2 cheesesticks, 1/ breadstick, 1 slice deep dish pizza from Gino's East
Snack: Banana Nut Sundae from Gayete's

Day 5

I am so sleepy right now. I want nothing more than to take a nap and catch up on some sleep. But I need to workout! I worked today and was up early, and didn't have time to workout this morning. Today's blog is short and simple, as I'm exhausted. I'm pleased with my progress so far. My co-workers have commented that I look like I'm losing weight. I too am happy that I am looking more toned and in-shape, at least as much as possible at this point. I don't think there's a part of me that isn't sore from yesterday's workout, a painful but good reminder of my hard work.

Breakfast: Apple cinnimon oatmeal
Lunch: 1 corndog, Birdseye vegetable steamer with rice
Dinner: 1/3 cup cottage cheese, left over vegetable stir fry
Snack: 1 coconut popsicle

Day 4

Let's talk about temptation. Yesterday I went over to Derek's house to hang out and watch a movie, and what do you want to do during a movie? you want to snack! So I looked in the fridge behind the CHEESECAKE WITH STRAWBERRY TOPPING, and grabbed some watermelon. Then once the watermelon didn't satisy, looked in the pantry next to the CHIPS AHOY CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES, and grabbed a bag of 94% fat free smart pop popcorn. Then got myself a glass of water and grabbed ice cubes from the fridge next to the tub of VANILLA ICE CREAM. Then after I got my snacks and Derek got his snack of a ham and cheese sandwich with delicious homemade potato salad, we finally watched a movie.
Sigh...

Then today, we had panera bread for lunch at work and included in the lunch were COOKIES. Have you ever seen cookies from Panera bread? They are freak mutant giant face cookies, with chocolate chunks folded into them like the crust of the earth, layers of soft, moist cookie and chocolate chunks:


BUT. I did not indulge in this evil baked good with a plot to ruin my whole dieting process. Cookies and cheesecake, and all matter of delicious sweets are the same, you can't just have a taste, so better to resist it all together!


Breakfast: Apple cinnamon oatmeal, 1 apple
Lunch: brought from home turkey and cheese on wheat, Panera Bread 1/2 sandwich Sierra Turkey, some salad with vinagrette, water to drink
Dinner: vegetable stir-fry 2 slices of bread with fake butter, 0 cal. fruit punch to drink
Snacks: wheat thins, 1 coconut popsicle, 1/2 tuna salad sandwich from Panera, weigh watchers smoothie

Day 3

Hmm.... what to do? I want to read, play sims, tan, and clean, but I need to workout before I work at 2. I wish sable wasn't so old so I could take her walking on the trail like before, but it's hot out and I don't want to over-exert her. Saturday will be my workout with a friend day if anyone is interested, let me know please. I think I will mop the floors (get a good arm workout in) and scrub the bathroom/kitchen. And then I will workout. Nothing exciting to report today. My behind is a little sore from yesterday's workout, my abs feel tighter, but no significant changes yet.

Today's workout was short, but was more strength training and still made me sweat. I did bicep/tricep curls, butterfly raises, lateral raises, lunges, plie squats, and ab crunches.

It's so important to eat breakfast every day because this is what jump starts your metabolism which BURNS CALORIES! Here's a quick video that gives some quick ideas for breakfast when you are on the go:



Breakfast: apple cinnamon oatmeal, toast with fake butter.
Lunch: turkey and cheese on wheat, wheat thins, 1/4 cup of walnuts, 4 marshmallows, water to drink.
Dinner: salmon patties (again), green beans, 0 calorie fruit punch to drink
Snacks: popcorn, banana, watermelon, 1 cup milk
I was really hungry today for some reason, I would eat and felt full and then a few minutes later felt hungry again. hopefully it's a good sign that my metabolism is working to it's potential.

DAY 2

This morning I woke up at 9:00 and hat breakfast right away. My biceps are sore from yesterday's workout and also from trying to fly a kite on Monday, which was disappointingly unsuccessful. So today is supposed to be my day off, but I am going into work 1-6 because I lost my hours from being off on Monday. Today I think I will run on the treadmill again and maybe go for a walk with Sable. Tonight I'm going for a bike ride because the weather is fantastic and it will still be light outside when I get off. At this point, I'm trying to decide if I want to weigh myself everyday, or weight myself every week. I guess I will only document the weekly weigh-in instead.

So today for my workout, I walked Sable, did an On Demand buns/thigh workout from Exercise t.v., also did a belly dance workout from exercise t.v., and ran 1 mile.  derek and I also went for a bike ride after work for about an hour.

Each week I would like to have a person who inspires me, and this week I have chosen ShayCarl from youtube. He has a great family and vlogs every day, and has lost 30 pounds in the last 3 months or so, so I give him a hand. Here's a video that I find funny and I totally get the beginning part about the 'delicious beef gyro" lol.






Breakfast: fresh strawberries, apple cinnimon oatmeal, water to drink.
Lunch: turkey and cheese on wheat, baked tortilla chips,
***Everything was going fine until Dr. Cheeseman bought everyone lunch at work from Chik-Fil-A, which included a chicken sandwich, waffle fries, and strawberry milkshake. And not wanting to be rude...I kind of ate...all of it.***
Dinner: salmon patties, popcorn, coconut popsicle, water to drink

STARTING OVER!!

Just as the title suggest, I'm starting over for 5648093823 time. I am doing a hybrid weight loss program which includes a weekly vlog, and photos as well as blogging EVERY DAY. I am about 250 lbs right now and my overall goal is weight loss! I invite anyone and everyone who wants to, to follow me in this process as I try to finally succeed in losing weight and becoming happier and healthier. Today is day one, I have not exercised yet, but I will as soon as I finish this. Since this is day one and the introduction to my weight loss program, I will outline my goals.

Long Term Goals:

• Be at goal weight of 180 lbs (for now)
• Become a skilled runner
• Inspire friends and family
• Have confidence
• Be beautiful

Short Term Goals:

• Run 5 miles each week
• Drink 64 oz of water a day
• Blog everyday
• Write down food intake each day
• Run 2 miles without stopping
• Eat breakfast every day
• Stop drinking pop
• Quit fast food

I would like to workout with a friend once a week so if you are interested please let me know. We don't have to be close friends, I would just like someone there to have a fun time with and to keep me motivated.
Last night we had Dairy Queen, and my ice cream was sad once I told it I couldn't be in that relationship anymore. I just had to end things. :) So below is the link to my youtube channel where I will be posting my weekly vlogs and pictures of me. I warn you, it's not pretty, it's 20 years of being harmful to my body but it's the honest real me. Any feedback is always appreciated!

Link to week 1 video:
http://www.youtube.com/user/ihartstarburst13?feature=mhee


Breakfast: apple cinnimon oatmeal and fresh strawberries. Water to drink.
Lunch: turkey and cheese on wheat, low fat popcorn, strawbrry yogurt, granola bar. Water to drink.
Dinner: 3 tacos(ground beef, sour cream, lettuce) lays baked! scoops. Water to drink.

Vegetarian Lunch

Today for lunch I had salad and steamed vegetables. I drank a pepsi, had a piece of cake and had cereal for breakfast. Doesn't seem right does it....?
Ah well, spring break is almost over and I haven't lost any weight, let alone those ten pounds I said I was going to lose. I've just been enjoying my time with Derek and spending every second with him. I will get back on track when he's gone. The last thing I want to do while he's here is exercise, and we did work out together one night. But we just want to relax and enjoy each other's company because it's something we never get to do. I will lose those ten pounds, and then ten more because I am inspired and ready to attack! I weigh 250 lbs. I would like to be down to 200 pounds by the end of the year, and then once that's accomplished, I will take away more weight. I just want to be happy again.

Breathing Easy

Today I worked out for about a half hour. I ran one mile, danced and stepped. I can actually breath deeper and easier. You know what, I am proud of myself. I am damn proud.
Monday I was up at 6 AM, Worked 7-7, came home and ate dinner, ran 1 mile and stepped, did my homework and passed out.
Tuesday I was up at 7 AM, at school from 8-2, worked 4-8:30, came home and ate dinner, watched idol and passed out by 11pm.
I have to say that I am proud that even with school and work I am still finding the time and forcing myself to be active. I am eating less too, not overindulging, and staying away from pints!
I am on my way to becoming happy, and with summer right around the corner I have full motivation to finally get skinny. I have no support group. I'm doing it on my own, but it's better this way because I know that I only have myself to blame if I fail. But I won't! Not anymore! :) My goal for this month is to lose 10 pounds before spring break which starts March 11th. I'v already chipped away a little, so it's only up (or down ;p) from here!

New year, new attempt.

Today is Jan. 23rd, 2011, 8:00 p.m., that time of night on a Sunday when I reflect on what I did this weekend, what I didn't do, and what I should've done instead.

Last night I laid my sansa fuze to rest after some ridiculous malfunction that I undoubtedly made worse. I also purchased a new mp3 player, some phillips something or other, 8 gigs. This time I was smart and bought a 3 year warranty.

We had burgers for dinner tonight, homemade ground beef ones, with cheese and everything else that belongs on a murdered cow between a bun. It wasn't healthy. And then there was chili cheese dip in celebration of a Bears game that didn't go well.

I layed on/in my bed for about 14 hours today. That's terrible. Playing games, sleeping, being lazy.

I look at myself in the mirror and I see chub. I see tiny eyes drowning in a round furry face stamped with a small, fake smile. I move my mouth and see cheeks blob up and down, weighing my words and smiles. I see deep pores, crammed with dirt, dry unhealthy skin. I look down at my hands, chubby chin protesting (also furry) and frown at my sausage fingers. I feel my belly pushed against the desk as I type this evening blog. I look back in the mirror, take it all in and wonder what the hell is wrong with me? To be in this physical state for so many years and not do anything about it?

I'm too embarassed to continue.