Bought some healthy stuff :)

After I got off work, I bought some fruit, salad mix, yogurt and lean cuisines. I honestly have been thinking a lot about trying a vegetarian diet for a while. I think it would be interesting to try. I am not that in love with meat, and chicken just doesn't taste good anymore. Neither do porkchops. I want to give up meat for a week and see where it takes me. I will still have milk products, minus ice cream which i shouldn;t be having anyway. But I won't eat cheese. I feel really good today, energized, healthy. Even though I didn't workout today, I kept my calories uder 1500, which was my goal, and I ate really good. If I keep this up, just dieting will help me lose for sure. I keep saying that I want to come up with a workout plan, but I think that won't help me. Sure consistency is great, but if i promise to workout at a certain time or for a certain length of time, I won't want to do it, and what if something comes up? That's why I just want to work out when I can. When I'm stting on my butt doing nothing, I'll think, I could be working out right now, and then I'll go do it. The most important thing for me right now is to get my eating under control because if I'm working out and not eating right, then it's all for nothing and I won't see those results. I haven't had fast food in almost 2 weeks! Go me! I gave up soda, and water is my bff. Woot for being healthy!

Wiiiiiiiiii!!!!

Just did almost an hour of Wii fit. Man that is so fun. My favorite thing is the island bicycling. I burned 520 calories! woohoo! I am hoping that if I keep this up, as well as trying not to eat so much, I can lose some weight. My goal of the first 2 weeks of this month is to lose 10 pounds, and so far, I have lost 1.2 pounds. It's not much, but it's a start. So now I only have 8.8 pounds left to lose :) yay!

I am really pround of myself lately too because I have had some extra spending cash this week, and instead of going through a fast food place or getting some DQ (which I might add taunts me everytime I come home from school) I save my money and go straight home. School has been getting a lotr busier, making me a lot busier. Now I don't really have time to watch t.v. or eat all day long. Yesterday I was busy from the time I woke up until it was time for bed. Those are ideal days. Sitting around and being bored makes me turn to food, and I am glad that lately I don't have to deal with that.

So yeah, I am doing good, and I am looking forward to seeing some results. Now I think I'll go on the bike :)

Being very very bad.

So I have gotten back to that point where I am smuggling and hiding food in my room. Part of me says its because my brother will eat it all, and part of me just wants to have access to food that is all mine. Sorry for not posting on the blog topics, I'm not the only one who hasn't committed it seems. I am afraid to weigh myself, and I am very embarassed to admit what I have eaten lately. I just need to STOP. Seriously, or i am going to die. today is february 26th, so very conveniently, march 1st rolls around on a monday. I am not going to necessarily start on that day and say, look, im finally gonna start because everytime i say that it NEVER happens. so, this weekend, i will try and gear myself up in preparation for hardcore dieting and exercising monday. I plan to cut my calories to 1500 a day maximum, eat 3 square meals and snacks in between. I absolutely CANNOT eat after 9 p.m. because that's a major issue. I will also not be eating while watching tv, and will cut back on tv in general. unless im folding laundry or waiting to go to work or something, the tv will not be on. I will only get a maximum of 8 hours a day, including weekends. I MUST eat breakfast everyday.
As far as working out goes, i want to try and burn at least 500 calories a day, however long that takes me or what i have to do, it doesnt matter as long as i get it done. Also I would like to work on other litle things, like writing when im bored instead of watching tv or playing games. I want to work on my posture. I want to work on my language and try not to be so vulgar or unladylike all the time. And I can't believe I'm saying this, but I am giving up my amp. Cutting back on sugar and sweets and punching temptation in the face. Goodbye pints, hello sugar free jello.
i seriously am going to get my shit together. I am so irritated that i let myself keep slacking and that i've let this go on for so long. it's the hardest thing to do. I did it before, and i can do it again. Listen up fat, you can seriously S my D!!!!!!!!

Unhealthy heart.

so I just worked out. I am sweaty and feel very proud of myself. But today I don't feel well at all. Today, I don't know exactly when, I noticed that my heart has been skipping and jumping. I can actually feel it flutter in my chest and it scares me. I looked online and read about arrythmia and its most of the time quite harmless, but it can also be a sign of heart disease. I know my heart isn't healthy because I eat bad stuff, but I don't want to have heart disease. I ruled out caffeine because I haven't had any today. I stayed away from sugar and I got enough sleep last night. I'm not too stressed out so I don't know what it could be. I did have mcdonalds last night for the first time in a while, so maybe the cholesterol and sodium is kicking me in the heart today. It's just not comforting knowing that your heart isn't behaving the way it should be. Maybe I'm just having an off day. I won't stress it because if I do it won't get any better. A wake up call? I think so!

My Support Group!

My support group is very important to me. We meet every tuesdays and thursdays, dressed in various character costumes. We talk like pirates and laugh like crazy chocolatiers, and we confess our obsessions and gush over look-a-likes we may see passing on the street. We call ourselves inDepply obsessed.

Oh, you meant my workout support group??

Don't really have one. I mean I get a 'good job' comment every once in a while from the parentals, and some 'likes' on facebook when I post my status about working out, but I don't really have a support group. I never really needed one. I think there's a difference between a support group and just people who motivate you.

I am a youtuber, and I am always searching before and after videos fo people who have lost weight. I frequently come across members who have posted weight loss video diaries and those are inspirational as well. Heres a video from a guy named Shay Carl. He is really funny and I thought this would be fun to share :) Just click on the link. You may or may not like it so if you do, that's awesome :)



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xSqiQQHkeWE

Fave low cal snacks...hmm.

I LIKE GRAPES!

And oranges. and apples sometimes. Frozen grapes are yummmy too. Sometimes rice cakes are good, but a lot of times they taste like cardboard. Anything fruit really is what I go to. Oh and yougurt. That is really good too, especially if it's fat free. :)

Blog topics 1+2.

Hey everyone, I am sorry I haven't been keeping up with my blog entries, I just started school so I am pretty busy! I will just combine monday's and Wednesday's in the same post. Here goes.

What keeps me going when I just want to stop...?
Well when it comes to running on the treadmill, I turn a really kickass song on and just power on through. It hurts like hell and I can hardly breathe by the end of it but I feel proud that I was able to keep going.
When it comes to eating healthy, I actually talk to myself...out loud. I tell myself that eventually the cravings will go away and that eating this healthy rabbit food stuff will make me healthy. Then I try not to think about pints of ice cream or cake or fettuchini alfredo.
And when talking about my whole struggle with weight loss and food control, I actually look at myself in the mirror. I take it all in and become disgusted and try harder. I'm not saying I hate the way I look, I just don't like all the weird shapes my fat sits in around my body. I know that sounds gross but hey I'm being honest here. And also I think about when I first lost a lot of weight, when i first started dating my boyfriend. I try to remember how happy i was and convince myself that i can get back there again. I do keep going no matter what, this time especially and I intend to keep it up.


Food Weaknesses?

ICE CREAM. Holy deliciousness... gimme some moosetracks and i will seriously sit there and eat it until i die. that is how bad i am when it comes to ice cream. Another thing is fast food because it's so quick! I havent had it in a while because i am boycotting it, but i love me some chicken nuggets from mcdonalds. I especially give in when my boyfriend and i go out to eat or we eat together. It frustrates me that he thinks he can just eat what he wants and he is just as unhealthy as i am. So when he gets a gyro and fries, i have to have one too because i dont want to be the exception. I am just happy when i'm with him so instead of being miserable and having a salad, i am gonna get even more happier with him and get some ice cream instead. Anything sugar pretty much and i am a goner!