Living that Keto Life!

Holy one year, wow that went fast. Anyway, still fat, and on that struggle bus for the last time. I am feeling motivated, excited, pumped, prepared, just all around ready for this new diet. This magical diet that I have spent the ENTIRE weekend researching. What is that you may ask?

THE KETOGENIC DIET!

WhaaaaaaaaaaT? is that? Well it is a LCHF (low carb, high fat) diet that tricks your body into burning fat instead of carbs to fuel itself.

I did a lot of research about this diet before starting and then decided to jump feet first into giving it a try. I mean a diet that allows you bacon?! All the bacon. All the fat. All the delicious meats, cheeses, proteins, and fat snacks you want. Only thing is, no carbs, or limit carbs to under 20grams per day.

I am on day 2 and so far so good. I started this diet weighing 285.6 and I am going to weigh myself after one week to see how much weight I have lost. One thing I have notices automatically is that I do not feel bloated. Apparently you crave water and also drop your water weight at first which is cause for the rapid weight loss at first. So I have been peeing and drinking more water.

Downsides. I am still hungry, but I am hoping this will change with continued progress. Carbs are in everything, so there are lots of things that I cannot have anymore. Goodbye delicious ice cream...goodbye. But wait! I have researched tons of recipes where I can make my own tweaked versions of my favorites so I can still indulge.

So tomorrow is Monday, going to start this diet during the week and see how it goes. I am feeling confident, a little nervous, but overall pretty good. W

Check out my latest update video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQNGT58_ixQ

Still fat.

It's been 84 years and I can still smell the fresh pain. The china had never been used, the sheets had never been slept in, the---

Oh wait, I'm quoting Titanic again, my bad.

It's been 3 YEARS since I last posted on this blog. When I found it I was excited, then depressed because it reminded me that I've been failing at losing weight for basically my whole life and it has only gotten harder.

Here's un update on the last three years of my life.

Got married, and even though I didn't fit into my original wedding dress and had to buy a new one, my wedding was kick ass and I felt the most beautiful in my life. This October is our third anniversary and married life is pretty awesome so far.

Moved out of mom's house into an apartment, bought our first house, and now I am on my second big kid job as a case worker. I am now working 2 jobs (1 is M-F and 1 is every other weekend F-M) and going to grad school. What up class of 2019?!

Side note: I'm trying to bring back this sarcasm thing and was pleased at my writing from before. But lately my writing is still floating around in the dark abyss somewhere and I've got one of those tiny fishing nets, wishfully scooping around for dem writing skills I used to be proud of. I'll get there!

Bad things are happening health wise:

• Severe back pain: 1 ER visit so far this year, back spasm and stiffness, and I pop muscle relaxers and pain pills like they are in short supply.
• I get short of breath easily and my heart beats fast if I do something as simple as climb stairs.
• Irregular visits from the red devil. Which is probably not a big issue because I'm not about that pregnancy lifestyle right now, but should still be regular.
• Bad skin, dry skin, oily skin
• General discomfort

Lifestyle changes I have made..?

• stopped drinking those god awful AMPs and stopped eating pints of ice cream. Seriously though, I was doing that on the regular and that was no Bueno.

Er..that's about it. Everything else that is bad I still do. I still eat too much, too late, drink my calories, am addicted to mocha iced coffee from DD, don't exercise, and am not active enough.

I do go to the gym more that I used to, which although it isn't much, is a miniscule step in the right direction. My weight according to this blog is still about the same. I hover between 279-285. I remember when I used to weigh 200lbs, some 9 years ago, and I wish I could have froze myself in time.

I have no fashion sense, and frump girl with no sense of beauty with minimal effort, and just feel all around gross. So I decided to make myself some more short term goals that I will try at again. My biggest motivator right now is the fact that I want to have a baby in the next 3 years so I need to get this body ready to do some cookin'. I don't mean to be joking or make light of the situation, but I am facing facts and coping with what I have done to my body these past years.

Goals:

• Workout at least 3 times per week for 1 hour each workout.
• Go to bed earlier to get up earlier
• Cut out iced coffees and stop drinking my calories
• eat breakfast every day
• lose weight (obviously) steadily
• Only weigh myself 1x week
• Only watch TV when working out
• Improve my posture and appearance
• Get back to the old me who actually gave a damn.

I think that's a good start for now. Time to make some changes and become the person I was always meant to be. Got to stay motivated. To keep myself on track, I am going to blog/vlog 1x week.

Week 1 vlog link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z-x7GD-mYQk

May 5, 2013

Welcome to the start of new beginnings! I have decided to finally start up my blog again and will complete an entry after every workout. This way I will always remember to do it.
The past year has been full of change and stress and many busy things. I have been working two jobs for the past year and have attended school full time. Needless to say, it has taken its toll on me. I have gained about 30lbs in the last year alone, ever since I stopped working at the animal hospital and took on a sedentary job. I have become lazy and frump girl again and am frankly ashamed of myself. There's no excuse for what I have done, I'm just providing reasons why it happened.
So now that I am officially graduating on May 19th from Purdue University, I will have free time to get my ass in gear. Weight loss is going to be my main priority and with strong perseverance and hard work, I can do it.
Something in me just clicked today. And I don't know why or what or how it happened but it did. I am tired of living my life 50% and I want to experience everything to the fullest. I am only 22 and I feel older than that.
My current weight is 275lbs as of yesterday. I haven't been this heavy since Freshman year of high school which was eight years ago. I regret the actions I have taked to get me here, but I am striving to move forward and not look back.
Oh, and did I mention I am getting married in 5 months to the most incredible man I have ever met? My goal is to be able to fit in my wedding dress by August, so that I will have time to have any necessary alterations done. I'd say I have to lose at least 50 lbs in order for this to happen. Ideall however, I'd like to get down to 200lbs to start, and then break on through after that.
So there are approximately 90 days until we reach August. If I want to lose the full 75lbs, I have to lose an average of .88lbs per day or 6 lbs a week. If I want to lose the 50 lbs, I have to lose an average of .55lbs per day or 4 lbs a week. So I am going to try and strive for 5lbs a week.
I know I can do this, I have done it before. Now I just need to be committed. I love my life and love myself, just not the body I am in. It's time to change. Wedding dress...here I come.

It is time.

Ha, I sound like Rafikki from The Lion King. But seriously. It is time to get my butt in gear. Today I had some really bad abdominal pain and it made me feel so overweight because it hurt to try and suck in my stomach. So gross. My friend Jenille and I are going to organize a workout plan and write down our weight loss goals. I need to get started and need someone to hold me accountable to keep going. I can workout fine, but when it comes to repetition and eating right, that's where I fall short. Tonight we are going out for pizza since Chris is coming back home, but hey, it's okay to celebrate I think. I just want to be beautiful and healthy. I want to be happy and outgoing. Shaycarl from Youtube has really inspired me to get going. He lost 85lbs in just a few months and now he's addicted to working out. I want that to be me! Hopefully this awful stomach cramping will go away. I want to start living my life.

Here's what I ate today:

Breakfast: 2 pieces wheat toast, 1 package instant oatmeal, 1 cup cranberry juice
Lunch: healthychoice chicken tortilla soup
Snack: popcorn
Dinner: PIZZZAAA!!
Misc: lemonade

Tuesday

Today was a short, exhausting day. I didn't have much time to work out this evening as I had homework to do, but I still ran 1 mile, and did arms and abs. I'm not working out as long as I would like to, but at least I'm doing it. That's the first step. I need to gradually get back into it, otherwise I'm going to hate it and resent doing it every night. I'm going to bed, I'm exhausted. I may or may not workout tomorrow as I have hospice volunteer work and its my day off so I like to relax for a while.

Breakfast: cereal with milk.
Lunch: PBJ sandwich, 2 graham crackers, 4 fat free marshmallows, 1 fun size hershey bar
Snack: multigrain cheerios
Dinner: Meatloaf and perogies.
Water to drink.

Monday

I did workout today. I walked on the treadmill and then decided to kick into high gear and ran the rest of that mile. I'm tired today. Not used to getting up early after a relaxing weekend. I ate poorly today, too much, full of fat, shameful. I'm embarrassed. Haven't lost any weight yet, we'll see after tomorrow. I've gained enough this weekend to where it should be relatively easy to get it off again. I ran 1 mile, did 3 miles on the bike and burned about 300 calories. I did some arms and abs also while watching Blood Ties. The gorgeous Henry Fitzroy inspires me to be skinny, or at least his abs do ;) Alas, it is bed time, and I shall post again tomorrow.

Breakfast: cereal w/ milk
Lunch: 2 fried egg sandwiches, water to drink
Snack: PBJ sandwich, water to drink
Dinner: KFC (chicken, biscuit, mashes potatoes w/ gravy, mac n cheese) water to drink
Other: fun size candy (M&M, snickers, Twix), zero calorie gatorade, 5 calorie diet cranapple juice

I'll start Monday

Today was better than yesterday as I had predicted. After I posted I went right downstairs for a fit of dancing and it made me happy. I worked today and went to school, and I'm thinking that if I just continue my regular schedule the rest of the week, I should be fine. Friday morning I will get up early and workout, go get my liscence redone, do some cleaning, pick up Hannah, and it's off to Eastern to see Derek. I really miss him. It sucks being in a long(ish) distance relationship. I wish he was here so we could lose weight together and motivate each other. It's hard to be doing this alone. Anyway I lost a pound since yesterday, but MONDAY I will get started, back in the swing of things. Workouts at night, light dinner after work, burn 500 cals each workout, Mon, Tues, Thurs, Fri, Sat. and every other Sun. 

Here's What I ate today:

cereal with milk

spaghetti with meat sauce, 2 pieces bread w/ butter, coke zero

3 eggs, 3 pieces sausage, 2 pieces toast, diet cranberry juice,

ice cream

Things I'm giving up: Ice Cream, Pizza, Cheese, Chips

Square One?

................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................Don't even know what to say. I'm so mad at myself for allowing myself to be lazy again and give up so easily. I was posting everyday, making videos every week, actually enjoying working out, and now I feel worthless again. I want to cover up all the mirrors I come across because I can't stand looking at myself. I don't see anything good, and I know that's just my unhappiness talking. I just need to get back out there and do it. No excuses. See right now I have my workout clothes on, but I'm fighting with myself because I need to study for a test, do my laundry, clean the kitchen, and still want time to relax, and I know that if I work out, I will be forfeiting that relaxation time. Fuck it. I'm just gonna do it. Just gonna get my fat, lazy butt up and run on the tredmill until I'm gasping for air. At least then I'll feel as if I accomplished something for once in my life.

Here's what I ate today: cereal with milk
                                   PBJ sandwich, popcorn, ice cream, coke zero,
                                   salad with french dressing and croutons, spaghetti with meat, seagrams wine cooler

........tomorrow will be a better day. I'm committing to weighing in everyday and posting/working out. even if it kills me...
This morning I weighed 244.8

Fourth of July weekend!

Hello again all, happy 3 day weekend to each of you. Monday is July 4th and I'm getting a little nervous. The last time we had a family get-together was for mother's day and there were so many delicious foods and desserts that I ate badly. There hasn't been a holiday or event to go to since I've started dieting so this weekend will definitely be a challenge for me in terms of fighting against cravings. I'll have to really kick some ass today after work with my workout as I've already gained 3 lbs this week. It sucks but i'm gonna try really hard this weekend to get back to where I was before. I won't care if I don't lose any weight, but I want to get those 3 lbs off and back to where I was before.
Tonight Derek, the parentals, and I are going to Valpo for some music/fireworks event. It should be cool. Who doesn't love fireworks? My dog...that's for sure...
Afterward we plan on coming back to the house and might drink a little. We will see though. I am nervous about that too as drinking makes you bloated and there are a lot of calories in liquor. It's summertime and I want to live a little, but I don't want to lose everything I've worked for so far. It'll be okay I think. Happy 4th!

Catch up!

Sorry I've not been blogging, it's seriously been the farthest thing from my mind. I have been so busy working, and exercising and dieting and spending every second with Derek that there's never enough time to blog. But I'm back today. So real quick, here's the link to my new video, I lost 12 pounds so far check it out if you haven't seen it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_11HUBPwatk

Tonight I was naughty and went out to eat with Kacey after work. We went to Cafe 24 a.k.a Round the Clock and I am so stuffed. I am worried that I'm not going to have lost any weight after this week because of how I ate today. But hopefully I can get my weight back down to where I was before. So the dieting has become much easier now because I can go without tempting foods and hardly ever get cravings anymore. It's pretty awesome. I also was able to go workout with a friend yesterday and I still have blisters on the back of my heels from all the walking we did. Thanks Jenille for keeping me motivated :) I am always looking for someone to workout with so just call or text me and I will be there. Next month is going to be crazy busy. I'm turning 21 in 13 days and that's my mini-deadline for weight loss. I want to have lost at least 20 lbs by my birthday, so that's only 8 more pounds to go. I might not make it but I'm gonna try my hardest.

Anyway, I'm pretty sleepy and I'm gonna get up early tomorrow to workout so..Goodnight all!

Week 4, Day 5

Talk about an inspiration! Friday after work, I went with mom and michael to run on the track at t.f. south. and we ran around a couple times. I did 1 mile and ran up the bleachers too. After one set of stairs, my legs were burning!! Mom and michael told me that I did an awesome job, and good words never get old. So when I got home, I ate dinner--Salmon and rice--- and then I played Pirates of the Caribbean Lego, and it was so so so fun! It was really nice and rewarding to be able to chill out and play a game after my workout because I knew that I worked hard and I never felt that feeling of "oh I really should be working out right now". My conscience kept quiet that evening :) I recommend that game, it was awesome!

Week 4, Day 4

Work work work work work work CRASH. That's how I'm feeling today. I worked 7am to 7pm today and I am really feeling it. I still have to workout tonight when I get home too.

Today I want to talk about my favorite weight loss games.

1. EA Active 2 for Kinect

This game really does a great job of working your total body. It's fun to play because there are so mnay different workouts and scenery settings to choose from. Personally I enjoy the mountain biking simulation where you alternate between running, squatting, and jumping to get over hills. It comes with a heart rate monitor that is more or less acurate. Everytime I play this I am sweating and gasping for air, in an awesome workout way of course!

2. Zumba for kinect

This one is probably my favorite one to dance to. I love it because the music is upbeat and gets you moving and it makes you feel all sexy and sassy too. The bar at the bottom fills up if you do the moves correctly and  the main dancer critiques you on how well or poorly you are performing the moves. I only wish there was more variety and that it gave you some more lee-way in terms of performing the dance moves. If you don't do the dance move right little red marks appear on the body parts you aren't moving correctly. Sometimes it's frusterating because you can do the move perfect and it will still say you are doing it wrong. All in all, a great game.

3. Dance Central for Kinect

This one is a little more mild and better for beginners. It's fun because you just DANCE and there are tons of songs that you know. This one makes you feel like you actually know how to dance (where my white people at??!!) because most of the moves are easy to follow. I love the colors and characters and music. There is also an option of turning on "workout mode" that tells you how many calories you burn per song, though I don't know how accurate it is. This one is great because it plays like a fun video game should but gives you that feeling of being active and tricks you into thinking you are burning calories!

Week 4- Day 3

I meant to post my blog and the new video yesterday but it nothing was working and instead of staying frustrated, I didn't deal with it and decided to take care of everything now. So here's the link to the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FbiFmfWcHVE

Yesterday I had WAY tooo much food and this morning I desperately ran on the tredmill to try and burn extra calories. I am finding that after each workout part of me wants to keep going because I know I can do more but I normally can't because I'm always rushing to get to work. Time is so hard for me to manage. I got involved with some Ben & Jerry's last night, and I felt so shameful this morning. It was just like doing the walk of shame in the morning at 9:00 a.m., lol. So I ran 2 miles today and did some ab crunches and arm reps. I have to work from 7-7 tomorrow so I'll have to workout tomorrow afterwards. I didn't eat much today and I don't feel hungry so that's good. It's almost time to get some new running shoes. Speaking of running shoes, have you seen these?


they are called Five Fingers and look so cool! I want to get a pair but I'm not sure how they would be. They are really expensive though. Still, they seem neat. Well eenjoy the video, I will be back again tomorrow!

End of Week 3

Week 3 is over, and I've lost a total of 10 pounds since beginning weight loss, and I'm really happy so far with my results. I weighed myself at 240.0 and when I get under that, I'm gonna flip out cuz I can't remember the last time I weighed less than that. I have come to realize that I can actually eat what I want (in moderation) and lose weight as long as I kick my ass on the treadmill. Remember yesterday when I was gonna go run on the high school track? Well I did and it was an awesome workout. I ran 2 miles (8 times around) and climbed the bleachers. My legs were burning! I was also silently proud of myself because there was another guy there who was in pretty good shape and he only ran 1 mile and left, but who's counting? Today my leg is hurting up by my hip. I need to stretch more otherwise I'm going to hurt myself. Today I only ran 1 mile on the tredmill and I did it in 10:21. Not my best but still pretty good for someone in my shape. There will not be a video available today, sorry! I will post it tomorrow though. I just didn't have time this morning, but since I'm working at 2 tomorrow, I will put it together in the morning.
At work today we had a picnic which meant we had a lot of food. I had a big lunch so I only ate a small dinner. And I am proud to say that I only had a small piece of pie at work. It was so small that everyone was making fun of it. I don't care, they can tease me all they want and eat their 1,000 calorie slices of pie. I'm done eating junk, I'm done treating my body wrong, and I'm through with not living. :) Video up tomorrow!

Sunday, week 3 almost over!

LAST CHANCE WORKOUT! or so they say on the biggest loser. Today is Father's Day, and this morning we had eggs, toast, grits and sausage. Not the healthiest of breakfasts but hey we're celebratin'. No plans for today as of now, except it's gonna be HOT! I'm gonna workout in a bit, gotta burn off those calories. Yesterday I ran 2 miles, and it wore me out. Just when I think I can't sweat enough...surprise! It's so gross. Anyone ever see Jackass 3, where Preston does the "sweat suit cocktail"? Such a lovely image.... :O

This week has not been as productive as the first week because I don't think I have lost any weight. If anything, I've put on weight. I need to be stricter with my diet, especially not eating after 9:00 because that's bed for my metabolism. I also think I need to go to bed earlier, but I don't want to wake up any earlier in the morning. I think I want to go run the track at t.f. South today and try running on a different surface instead of the tredmill. Well, off I go. I really really don't want to do it but I'm gonna!

I don't even know what day this is anymore!

http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/wqPKYTh/




I lost track of counting the days plus I think "day 1, Day 2, Day 3" etc is a little boring. I will have to challenge myself from now on to come up with a creative title. So I've been having this problem with sleeping in and I'm not sure how I feel about it. Every morning my alarm goes off at 9am but sometimes I am tossing and turning like 15 mins before the alarm goes off. I do this bad thing where I will check to see what time it is and then because I know the alarm is gonna go off, I can't sleep annymore even though I want to really bad! Another thing too: when I reset my alarm for like 9:30 after it goes off once, I want to get a little more sleep in but I can't because then I start thinking about all the things I could and should be doing. "oh I gotta go workout, I hav to make my lunch, maybe I should walk the dog, maybe I should run outside today, I have to clean the kitchen, I need to clean out my car" It's a nightmare. I guess it's good that I get up then because I can't sleep, but then I'm cranky for like half the morning. Tomorrow should be fun cuz I'm getting up at 5:45 to go to work at 7. Never like doing that!

So I would like to change the layout of my blog. I don't want to have pics of fruits and vegetables and bikini models or any junk like that. Something cool looking but gives the message of "life" and changing it for the better. I'll hop on google later and see what I can find. How are everyone's workouts going? Leave me comments! Talk to you tomorrow!

Breakfast: cereal with banana and milk
Lunch: Lean cuisine dinner, yogurt
Dinner: 2 corndogs w/ ketchup, cottage cheese, water to drink

Mid week post!

So I have ran 2 miles so far this week, so I've got 3 more to go before monday, which I will probably run like 6 miles before then. The last time I ran it was suprisingly easy. I can run longer now and I am learning to control my breathing. I am still losing weight, woo hoo! I have been busy this week, so i apologize for not blogging as much. I have no idea what I was doing last week that game me so much time to blog everyday. Whatever it was I miss it. Yesterday I went with Derek, Hannah and their mom to see Derek's new house in Tuscola. Yes he is moving, but i'm not worried. If anything, once he is gone that will be one less distraction and one less persuader of bad food to take me off track. And then when it comes time to visit each other, I will be lookin pretty good! I got a new pair of jeans, from Good Will (so i guess they're not technically new) and they are tight and fit me, so that's good.
Off to have breakfast!

Inspiration of the week: PETER JACKSON

Who doesn't love this guys movies? The Lord of the Rings trilogy is a masterpiece! I was seriously shocked when I saw how he looks today, it's fantastic. It looks like he's lost a whole person. Who cares if losing all that weight had something to do with being a millionaire, still he's changed his life around. Can you imagine what it must have been like for him when they were filming the movies? Going to these remote locations, climbing hills and mountains and filimg all hours of the night. No wonder he lost all that weight, it must have been exhausting and really hard for him as an overweight man. Look at him now: healthy, happy, successful and looking younger too. Now if only he'd cut that hair...

I just ran another 2 miles!!
Breakfast: 1 banana, pancakes
Lunch: lean cuisine 280 cals
Dinner: ham and cheese sandwich, baked bbq chips, water to drink

Starting Week 2 over!

First off, I would like to say that I appreciate everyone who has taken the time to read the blogs, and thanks to those who have offered suggestions and diet tricks. Secondly, I won't be posting a video this week, frankly because I'm embarassed that I went off track this weekend. But as I'm writing this, I am sweaty from a workout so I am going back to being commited. I would like to try something new this week, hopefully it goes well. Remember those mini goals I posted way back then? One of them was "run 5 miles per week" and this week, I am going to attain that goal. I would like to practice running more outside as well so hopefully I can get my lazy butt out of bed in the morning and go run the trail like I've always been meaning to. I love to run with the dog, but my poor baby is just too old for that. Anyone want to lend me their dog? LOL kidding..

So Sorry about no video but I've taken 1 step backwards in my journey and there's nothing to show for it. I guess I got a little too cocky the first week I started. What's done is done, just know I'm back in the game and I'm not gonna let it happen again!

Date night!

So tonight Derek and I went out to the Pit Rib House, and it was soooooo good! He had a burger, and I had a bbq chicken, rib tips combo with french fries, coleslaw, and texas toast. MMM! I don't even care about how many calories were in it because we were on a date and I've been cutting calories all week. I don't anticipate losing any weight after this week because week 2 is always the hardest. your body is trying to work out the kinks and get used to dropping weight so quickly. Just like on the biggest loser how they would lose 10 pounds the first week and only lose 2 pounds the next week. That's okay though because I'm staying healthy in my food choices (with the exception of today) and I'm working out more than I did before. I have not been giving it my all this week and that's partly due to the curse of mother nature, but next week I'm gonna kick my own ass on that tredmill and get this weight off! I want to look good in my swimsuit. I can tell which parts of me are shrinking, I am proud at how strong my core is, and I love that people are noticing. This is probably the hardest thing I've done, losing weight is both physically and mentally exhausting but I just think about how accomplished I will feel afterwards. So now that i've had my naughty food eating weekend, it's time to get back on track!

Breakfast: yogurt
Lunch: Jimmy John's Turkey tom
Dinner: as described above!
Dessert: 1 brownie, ice cream cone from DQ

Day 11

................Not feeling like blogging right now. Not feeling good at all. Feeling really bloated and tired. G'night.


Breakfast: yogurt, english muffin
Lunch: ham and cheese on wheat, apple, wheat thins
Dinner: eggs in a basket, turkey sausage
Snacks: fat free ice cream